FIGHT-sary

JULY 14, 2006--> The one and only thing that isn't right about this day was that I was here in the Philippines and Dong Bang Shin Ki's in Malaysia having their concert. I would have been there if not for issues concerning parental desicion-making. I remember exactly two months ago:

MAY 14, 2006:

It was Mother's Day.

I wrote my diary entry for Kim Jae Joong.

I woke up late from a brandy-filled sleep.

My eyes were puffed like hell because of two hours of continuous crying.

I hated my mother more than anyone in this world that day. Ironic right?

I was supposed to be thanking her and saying my I-love-you's.

But I wasn't. Guess why? She didn't allow me to go to Malaysia. I hated her because I would have wanted that as an early gift for the celebration of my 18th birthday this year. I was willing to pay for it and close my bank account that I have had since I was 7. I was willing to spend all my Christmas and birthday money for a mere sight of Kim Jae Joong dancing again up in stage. 18 years of monotony that might have ended yesterday if my mother got a little open-minded and optimistic. Did I tell you she promised me she would allow me? But yeah..the promise turned out to be a ruse. It snapped with one phone call from my aunts in Dubai. They didn't help much.

And so. I wasn't able to type this up yesterday due to bone-deep depression.

I spent all day yesterday imagining what Jae Joong was doing.

Hehe.

Pathetic as hell.